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Many times people ask me what it is like to work with me. The best way to explain it is through a poem.

I attribute this deep sense of peace to two things. The first is understanding where my experience comes from. I came across a beautiful understanding called the Three Principles. Sydney Banks, the man who had an enlightening experience, showed me that I do not experience my circumstance, I experience my thinking around them. For example, I can have my employee quit. The employee quitting is neutral. What I think about is what I will experience. If I am sad that she is leaving, then I will be sad. If I am angry when she quits, I will feel anger. My thinking creates my experience.

It is 90 degrees in my house. Much cooler than the 98 degrees yesterday. Northern California is in a heat wave. When I drove through the hills, I saw a patch of dry parched earth, longing to be soaked by the rain.I know how this earth feels. I have been parched inside. I didn’t know that I was parched. I thought it was normal to be so dry. What caused my internal drought? My lack of self worth and self love. I thought I had done a pretty good job loving and taking care of myself. I eat healthy, do yoga and pilates, sleep and enjoy my life. I have a wonderful relationship with a man who worships me and I love my children and I believe they love me in return.

I can’t see this energy because it is invisible. When my mind quiets down and I let go of my concepts I feel this energy. I feel the peace, beauty and well being in me. It is like my light turns on and I radiate the energy beaming through me. I walk around with a smile on my face for no reason other than being alive.

Relationships are tricky. I am like every other human being and have struggled and suffered in them. I was in an abusive marriage where my ex husband ridiculed and berated me. I was dumped and heartbroken by my best friend over something I still don’t understand. I left a job when I didn’t get along with my boss. And then I came across The Three Principles. This understanding transformed everything for me in relationships. It allowed me to see that I am not experiencing the other person, I am experiencing my thoughts of the other person.

I used to live in the dark. But not the kind of dark I just talked about. For so much of my life I lived in a dark that covered my light. A dark that covered my love. A dark that covered my creative genius. This dark froze me. It had me walk around hooded with my hands tied around my back. A hydration backpack filled with fear for me to suck. I was scared and anxious.