It Wasn’t Complicated After All
My son is spending Christmas away for the first time.
Twenty-nine years of shared rituals, and now a quiet change.
I didn’t have an issue with him going. That part felt clean.
What hurt was something else.
I wasn’t held in mind.
Plans were made — with friends, with travel, with what came next — and somehow I wasn’t part of the orientation. When dates were offered later, they landed flat. January 25 didn’t feel like a celebration. It felt like a placeholder.
The meaning that came immediately was familiar:
I don’t matter. I’m not a priority.
How Feeling My Disappointment Set Me Free
It was Sunday. My partner and I were on our way to Limantour Beach.
As usual, I brought my Gene Keys book. It’s a ritual for me — I sit quietly and ask the book to show me what it wants me to see. I open it to a random page, and I trust what comes.
That day it opened to the 55th Gene Key — the one that explores Victim Consciousness and Freedom.
As I began reading, a single line stopped me in my tracks:
“True freedom is not an effect. It is an ever-expanding consciousness that arises spontaneously inside you as you come to understand how deeply victimized you are by your own core beliefs.”
Empty Space
✧ The Fallow Season: When Letting Go Makes Room for More
We as humans naturally resist letting go.
We fight with everything we have to avoid loss, to hold on just a little longer.
But what if loss wasn't the end?
What if underneath the barrenness, there was something profound and new waiting to take root?
As a coach, I have the rare privilege of witnessing transformation up close.
In the intimacy of this work, something sacred unfolds—
Trust deepens, breakthroughs arrive, and hearts open.
And then, the natural ending comes.
The work completes.
The season changes.
And I’m left with the quiet ache of goodbye.