Pushing to Peace

✧ How I Stopped Proving Myself and Found a Deeper Confidence

I used to live in fear.
A fear so deep it had me pushing like a freight train up a mountain—
all effort, all grit, no pause.

Sparks and smoke flew off of me,
burning out my energy and scorching the people I loved.

I moved like a wild woman,
Driven by one core belief:

“It’s all on me.”

That belief didn’t just live in my personal life—
it shaped how I worked.

I hustled.
I carried too much.
I built a career on survival and striving,
not on trust or truth.

✧ The Hidden Face of Imposter Syndrome

At the time, I wouldn’t have called it impostor syndrome—
But that’s what it was.

The pressure to prove myself.
The fear of being found out.
The belief that I had to earn my worth by doing more.

Even when I was succeeding,
I felt like I wasn’t enough.

My father had died.
My mother was surviving on the goodwill of my brothers.
The man I married was sick.

And somewhere in the quiet, I decided:

“I must do it all. I must hold it all. No one is coming.”

That kind of self-reliance can look admirable.
But underneath, it’s exhausting.
And it disconnects us from the still, quiet knowing that says:

“You are already enough.”

✧ What Changed Everything

Today, I live from a deeper place.
Not surface calm—but peace that holds everything.

I don’t push.
I listen.
I respond.
I create.

I’ve become like a still lake—
sensitive, awake, present.

✧ Two Shifts That Changed My Life

1. A New Understanding of the Mind

Through the work of Sydney Banks and the Three Principles, I discovered:

“You are not experiencing your circumstances.
You are experiencing your thinking about them.”

This changed everything.

I saw that it wasn’t the situation that caused stress—
it was the story I told about it.

The meaning I made.
The lens I looked through.

2. A Direct Experience of Truth

Later, I experienced a sacred medicine called Bufo.
What I had once only heard—

“You are love. You are supported.”

—I now felt in my bones.

It revealed what Sydney Banks spoke of:
When the mind quiets, the infinite love within us rises.

✧ From Proving to Being

This is now the foundation of my work:

Not from fear.
Not from proving.
But from peace.

And this is what dissolves imposter syndrome.

It’s not about fixing the job.
It’s about shifting your orientation.

From thinking you have something to prove
→ to knowing you have something to give.

From pushing to peace.
From survival to truth.
From holding it all alone
→ to letting yourself be supported.

From this place,
a new kind of work becomes possible.

One that is aligned, steady, and truly your own.

✧ Ready to Stop Proving and Start Trusting?

If imposter syndrome is driving you to push harder than your spirit can hold—
Let’s return you to peace.

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